第2年剛開始，覺得過得並不好，nothing to do with science, but about relationships
人與人之間的關係真的不是率真或是直白或是乾脆這些直線條的詞語可以形容的
也不是那樣處理的
總是有各種拐彎抹角各種忍耐，也許有所求(sounds super normal)但必須退而求其次
也許sometimes being offensive but didn't mean to do that
Didn't mean to hurt anyone but people still might take it seriously.
Then? I'm tired of that. Why do I (or you) want to be with those making you unhappy, making you stressed out and at the end just nothing but shit?
I'm pretending I'm good, but I'm not, completely not.
I'm pretending I'm strong enough to handle things, but how can I?
I'm not saying I'm not an adult, but I hate this feeling that nobody cares you but you still have to do those things cuz if you don't do that then things are going bad and, people are still going blame you and teasing on you and making fun of you!
Why am I being here? What am I doing here? Am I really doing great science? Probably. But I'm pretty sure I'm not doing well on relationships, not even maintaining but neither getting new ones. I know, I'm a clown, pretending everything and fucking off everything.
